Which kinda sucks, but then again, at least it's something to do. Things are better than they have been all summer, so yay. Dunno if it'll last, but for now, it's okay.

Why am I always the one apologizing for feeling hurt? Why doesn't anyone apologize for hurting me, hmm? What the hell?

Ugh. I hate myself for being so easily hurt by the people I love...

I hate the people I love for not understanding how much they're hurting me...

I hate myself for letting it get to me...

I JUST WANT TO STOP HURTING!!!!

1. Pick a word that starts with the first letter of your first name:
Kipper

2. Without stating names, say something to three different people.
1. I love you. Not romantically, I just love you. (actually this could apply to several people)
2. I'm glad I haven't seen you in a year, and when you die I will be relieved.
3. Why do you have to be such a jerk, when it's so easy to be nice?

3.Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
Several people.

4.How many times have you been to the ER for yourself?
None.

5. What's something that always gives you the chills?
Eating ice cream on a cold day.

6.In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence?
Nope.

7. How has this past week been for you?
Good, and then rotten, and then good again.

8. When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
I try to find out why they're walking out, and if I can, fix it. If I can't fix it, I sadly let them go and cry every night for months afterward.

9. Do you do your own laundry?
Yes.

10. How many months until your birthday?
Eleven.

11. What are you listening to?
My creaky desk and the fan in the ceiling.

12. Who's the first person in your contacts list?
D. Armstrong.

13. Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
It tells me that they care, so in that way, no. Plus it helps me fix my behavior in the future. But it does kinda hurt.

14. Name the first person you can think of that you know that has tattoo(s)?
My aunt.

15.Are you good at giving directions?
Not really. I tend to spin around and point wildly.

16.What's you favorite thing to eat with Peanut Butter?
Ice cream and chocolate syrup.

17.Do you currently have a hickey?
No, never have.

18.If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Spring.

19. If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to tell you?
Directly. I don't care what medium... in person, online, phone, whatever. As long as they're direct and don't just show it by immature showing off.

20.When was the last time you cried really hard?
Most days/nights lately.

21.Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Yeah, I always look like this.

22.What's one thing you want more than anything in your life?
Someone to rely on and them rely on me in a mutual sort of way.

23.What was on your mind mostly today?
Family, friends, depressing music theory.

24.Last person you gave something to?
I gave my cat some food a minute ago.

25.Do you like winter time?
In general, yes.

26.What was the last movie you watched?
Star Trek!

27.Did you ever lose a best friend?
Three, which makes it hard to believe anyone can ever stay my best friend for long. But I want to believe that so bad.

28.Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
Not really.

29.Does the last person who put their arms around you mean anything to you?
Yeah, I love her.

30.Are you ticklish?
Not very.

31.Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Don't remember.

32.What’s the greatest sound in the world?
A good Irish session.

33.Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
Of course, but I'd like to know how it saves them.

34.Can you play guitar hero?
No.

35. What's on your bedroom floor?
Carpet, boxes, tools, backpack, purse, instruments...

36.How many piercings do you have?
One in each ear, just boring one.

37.Ever kissed in the rain?
No.

38.How's your heart lately?
Okay as far as I know.

39.Are you a jealous person?
I have no basis for judgment.

40.Any plans for tomorrow?
Stupid class early early in the morning. Then sleep. Then session.

41.Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
If it's raining or whatever.

42.Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?
Yes.

43.Do you bump into someone’s arm if you want to hold their hand?
I don't think so.

44.Do you want any tattoos? If so, where?
I don't think so.

45.When is the last time you were in a photo-booth taking pictures with a friend?
Long long ago. And the friend was my sister.

46.Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I don't know.

47.When's your birthday?
April 7, 1987

48.What's the last thing you laughed at?
My family and our silliness.

49.Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Mmm, the good ones.

50.Does the thought of marriage scare you?
Not scare, exactly, but it's not an attractive prospect.

51.What was the first thing you thought this morning?
"No... it's too early..."

53.What color are your eyes?
Brown

54.Who do you hate currently?
My father for over a year now

55.Do you get the recommended eight hours of sleep a night?
Hell no. Even if I get 8 hours, it's rarely at night!

56.Would you rather have your nose or tongue pierced?
Nose

57.If you could change your eye color would you?
Nah.

58.Last missed call?
No idea, probably spam.

59.Did you learn anything last night?
Something about music theory, and it was depressing.

60. Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
I dunno. They all seem big to me, even if it's a tiny little one.

61.Do you have a best friend to lean on?
I hope so.

62.Do you like your hair long or short?
If it's not short it just lies there like a wet noodle. So short.

63.If you were a reasonable age, would you prefer a baby boy or girl?
I would prefer neither.

64.Do you want to cut your hair?
It'll last a little longer.

65.Are you over the age of 25?
nope.

66. What did you do today?
Hung out with sis and mother and measured our ears.

67. What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
Amelie.

68. How many kids do you want to have?
None.

69.What's your favorite color(s)?
whatever, muted ones.

70.Is there anyone who knows you inside and out?
I think so.

71.What is your current mood?
Not horrible, just rather glum.

72.Last thing you bought from Walgreens?
Never been.

73.What did you last cook?
Chili.

74.Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with a D?
No.

75.Are you traveling anytime soon?
Don't know. Maybe.

76.What is the last song you listened to?
The Bachelor's Warning.

77.Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
Honestly I think I play enough already. But... Nyckelharpa.

78.What is something you do a lot?
Hang around alone.

79.Do you want to see somebody right now?
Yes.

80.Do you like drama?
If you mean actual drama, like movies, theater, tv... yes. If you mean interpersonal "drama" between people I know, then no.

81.Do you still watch kiddy shows or movies?
No.

82.What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing.

83.Last time you went to the movies?
Star Trek.

84.Do you like the rain?
Sometimes.

85.What are you thinking about right now?
Wondering when I can get some sleep.

86. What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping.

87. What is your favorite memory?
Don't know.

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No!
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages or comments you and Asks!
3. Add a yes or no question of your own at the end
4. Tag the person that sent this to you when you finish

Now, here's what you're supposed to do ... Copy and paste this, delete my answers and type in your answers.

My Answers:

1. Kissed any one of your facebook friends? Yes
2. Been arrested? No
3. Kissed someone you didn't like? No
4. Slept in until 5 PM? Yes
5. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
6. Held a snake? Yes
7. Ran a red light? Yes
8. Been suspended from school? No
9. Totaled your car/motorbike in an accident? No
10. Been fired from a job? No
11. Sang karaoke? No
12. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
13. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? No
14. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes
15. Kissed in the rain? No
16. Sang in the shower? Yes
17. Sat on a rooftop? Yes
18. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? No
19. Broken a bone? No
20. Shaved your head? No
21. Blacked out from drinking? No
22. Played a prank on someone? No
23. Felt like killing someone? Yes
24. Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? No
25. Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? Yes
26. Been in a band? Yes
27. Shot a gun? No
28. Tripped on mushrooms? No
29. Donated Blood? No
30. Eaten alligator meat? Yes
31. Eaten cheesecake? Yes
32. Still loved someone you shouldn't? No
33. Think about the future? Yes
34. Believe in Love ? Yes
35. Sleep on a certain side of the bed? No
36. Got a tattoo? No
37. Kissed under a waterfall? No
38. Swam naked in the ocean at night? No
39. Seen the Northern Lights? No

I tag everyone who reads this! Which is probably nobody!

Since said "I tag everybody," and I actually read a journal for once and saw it...


1.Your real name?
Kelly

2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother and father's middle names)
Marie Herbert
That's reasonable.

3.NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Gerard John

4.STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Crike
Is that pronounced Crikey, like the crocodile hunter, or Crick like a cricket?

5.DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Green Cat
Boooooring.

6.SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, town where you were born)
Marie Alexandria
Not bad I guess.

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Brown Hot Chocolate
Awesome.

8.FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Kets
Pff, reminds me of Kes from Voyager... bleh.

9.ROCK STAR NAME: (favorite pets name, current street name)
Casey Chummley
Catchy.

10.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Kelizzle
Lovely.

11.YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Elimalytts
Uhh.

12.YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Squeaky
Oh very goth. Very.

I tag anybody who wants to be tagged.


In other news, Kevin Crawford is the best guy ever, and you should all check out the band he's in, Lúnasa [link] , and his new CD with bandmate Cillian Vallely, On Common Ground [link] . Awesome awesome awesome.